Leaderless Losers😎

I’ve already talked about how I don’t really have any friends (and most people don’t: this is actually a cultural norm now). Loneliness is at an all-time high currently, if it were a fashion trend it would be really “in” right now. Jumping off of that idea, in this one I want to talk about how we are completely alone, period. Where are any of our leaders? Why do we feel so abandoned? Well, it’s because that is basically the truth. We now live in an abandoned, leaderless apocalyptic world quietly snowballing towards our inevitable (and too predictable) demise.

First, if you didn’t read it, to refresh your memory about the “no friends” thing, I feel deeply mistrustful of most people these days, and there’s a slight fear I have of people “taking” more than “giving” or adding to my life in some way (especially as things get increasingly worse for most folks in society and people get more desperate/feel they have less to lose: you can see this clearly with regards to the wave of crime and violent incidents Toronto has had recently, for example). A big thing for me lately has also been the fact that I simply do not relate to most people and the values they have anymore. There is pretty much no one out there for me. Even when I’m around other people I feel entirely alone in life. This is a broad generalization (sometimes they are necessary), but: I find most younger people to be rude, overly sensitive, & annoying, and I don’t really understand them much anymore (nor do I seek to). Older people are selfish, boring retards who don’t understand we’re in a collapse and got to benefit the most from a booming society etc while everyone else gets the leftovers (if at all), so I dislike most of them too. And people my own age have become NPCs with their shitty jobs who have given up on their former dreams, and aren’t really fun or inspiring to talk to anymore. The few people my age who are considered “successful” are successful in ways that don’t inspire me and have sold out their former beliefs entirely, and they’re busy getting married and having children at the worst possible time to do so ever in the history of the world, so you can imagine how much we relate to each other and get along. I have almost no one to talk to these days pretty much. I’m not sure how to describe it, but it feels like everyone is living in a different world than myself sometimes.

No one reads books, no one has anything new or interesting to say, and no one has the balls to do anything about where we’re headed. It feels like everyone has lost their damn minds and we are all, in our own deranged ways, waiting for the same outcome to happen regarding the climate apocalypse etc. Everyone is just kinda putting their heads down and letting whatever’s about to happen…..happen. It’s like the climate emergency is like Harvey Weinstein in the 90s, going around raping bitches, and we all want to keep our jobs in the social hierarchy, so we’re saying absolutely nothing despite knowing everything. (And then I suppose in 2037 there will be some kind of climate me too moment in which we all act devastated and pretend we didn’t know what was going on? Haha).

When I look around at most people these days I don’t really see anyone I admire as a deep thinker or a person I’d consider to be a good role model for me. Not that I’m some amazing role model here myself, I fuck up constantly and fully intend to fuck up some more if I’m blessed again enough to get back to Amsterdam, haha. I’m not saying people should be on their best behaviour constantly, I’m just saying the bar feels like it has been dropped really low, and it’s very disappointing. It’s like…I have no expectations for people anymore, and they have somehow managed to disappoint me even on that level. I don’t look up to anyone anymore, if anything I find I just feel bad for most people. I know this sounds bad and possibly condescending, but I guess I am just at the age where I’d prefer to be outside of “the group,” whatever that even means anymore, than in it. It feels less unhealthy for me to be outside looking in, than chilling inside the asylum like one of the other drooling retards. To put this another way, a weird realization I had recently is that I am now around the same age Dave Chappelle was when he dipped to Africa, and that’s kind of how I feel right now. I think I’d much prefer to be away from most people than around em. Nothing feels fun anymore. Movies suck, getting pussy is boring (okay, maybe not fully boring, this one never really gets old haha😆. That trip back to Amsterdam is certainly in order), most people aren’t interesting to me anymore. We just live in a profoundly stupid, boring culture and I am tired of it.

So to “circle back” to my original point here, if no one in my life is really all that “good” for me, that can only mean one thing. They’re the opposite: bad. And this is the problem I’m having lately on a larger scale, and something almost everyone else is too, but maybe they don’t realize it yet: it’s not that I’m writing this stuff as some cool tough guy who thinks he’s better than everyone else. It’s not that I have abandoned the culture/the world/people, but rather that the culture and the world has abandoned me. (And I would argue it’s abandoned everyone else as well, whether they understand this or not).

We have all been fucking abandoned. Our governments don’t give a shit about us. Our parents don’t give a fuck about us. And the average person doesn’t have any friends, so it’s obvious we don’t even give a fuck about each other. Where is the Che Guevara or Fidel Castro type figure that would typically stand up at a moment of such corruption and inequality at a time like this? Are you really telling me that the face of the climate emergency protest is literally….a little girl? That is the perfect representation of who we are as a species: we’re complacent, and I guess willing to accept the first person to stand up and speak on the situation, even if it’s a girl who can’t really help us. It’s effectively just more symbolism and vicarious living, which is what we’ve all become. A bunch of do nothing, complacent, Wall-E, fat faggots. I think it says quite a bit about where we are as a people that we are willing to sit back and watch as the world burns. People like me will sit here and write stupid articles that a handful of people read, and in the end nothing will get done. It’s like we’ve traded vicariously complaining in exchange for actual action. There are zero leaders anymore, no one is doing anything that actually matters. It’s all a distraction game until the next big pandemic type event happens, at which point everyone will repeat the same mistakes and so forth.

This one was very negative, I know, so I will once again end with a “positive” spin for those that need to hear such platitudes. If there are no leaders left for us, no one to really look up to, no once in a lifetime voices or unique generational talents coming to the surface when we need them the most (and don’t tell me Greta Thunberg is some kind of hero: she isn’t IMHO, she is just as useless as everyone else is), then that clearly means you’ve got to be your own leader. It has always been this way, of course, but these days I feel it very strongly. I don’t really need to pay to see some shitty movie, for example, when I could stay home and write a better one myself. I’m working on a dark comedy right now about an alien who crash lands right in the middle of the border between a poor black neighborhood and an affluent white neighborhood.  It’s called B.E.T. the Black Extra Terrestrial, and it’s very funny so far, I’ve been cracking myself up writing it. There’s nothing out right now that has made me laugh as much as my own writing, and that’s exactly what I mean: people should be looking less to other people these days and retreat more into themselves. When a real life girl isn’t around, you gotta jack yourself off. Same thing with life in general: when all of our leaders have disappeared into their bunkers, you have to remember to take care of yourself. No one is coming to help you, no one gives a fuck about you, you shouldn’t need some guy who sounds like Kermit the frog to tell you to clean your room, all you can do is be kind to yourself and treat yourself as your own best friend. Water your own damn mental health plant! Chop chop bitch, get to work ! Clean ya drawers and wash ya damn ass. Brush ya teef. Hahaha.😆😂🥚🐥🔥🍳😂💯

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